I know I have been silent for a while. I’m sorry. My anxiety and depression attacked in force the last couple months as I struggled with my boys’ behavior (turns out they are little terrors), family health issues, and just a general lack of purpose/vision for my life. I realized I am in no position to inspire others to live their best life when I can’t get my crap together. As much as I want to be that positive force, I barely hold my head above water at this point.
Even though my words lack wisdom and insight, I miss sharing with you. Therefore, I am re-focusing Hope in the Journey to be the raw (and sometimes ugly) truth of my journey. I hope to share some nuggets you can relate to – some may inspire, others may make you cry, others still may stir no reaction whatsoever. Regardless, the words will be honest.
After all, how do we know true joy without experiencing despair, or reach new heights without the valleys? I still subscribe to the concept of continually learning and striving to be a better version of myself. Some days I may feel like I took 5 steps backwards, but I keep walking, keep fighting, and keep hoping.
What is “spiritual wellness”?
From the beginning, let me confess to know nothing for certain. My upbringing defined “the Spirit” in a narrow conservative Christian context as my connection to God that convicted me of wrongdoing. I continually confused guilt derived from institutionalized dogma with conviction by the Holy Spirit. Certainly, many positive characteristics I have stemmed from my religion (such as hard work, honesty, compassion), but I lived with a lot of remorse and very little joy. Only recently have I looked into the area of spiritual wellness with more openness and curiosity, searching for enlightenment and peace.
Is spiritual wellness even worth pursuing or should the idea be dismissed as “woo-woo” nonsense?
Despite questions and doubts, I continue to believe in some power greater than all of us. Has the expanse of nature ever inexplicably inspired awe in you – perhaps on a mountain top, surrounded by a forest, or standing next to the ocean? Have you felt the contrast of being insignificantly small while deeply connected to the large world around you? In these instances, I feel that Great Power pulsing in my bones inspiring contentment and peace. This universal energy feeds all life and is the essence of spiritual wellness.
How does a person achieve and maintain spiritual wellness in her life?
No standard formula exists to achieve and maintain spiritual wellness because it is so personal in nature.